Kodi Arfer / Wisterwood

My brother and I made a mistake today.

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#001 | Mith |
Rather depressing story. If you're in a good mood, stop reading this.

My mother passed away in 2000. Before that she had remarried and had a third son named Dillon. Dillon asked Timmy (younger brother, first marriage) and myself a couple of months ago if we had anything that reminded us of mom. Dillon's birthday is tomorrow, so today Tim and I decided to go through my shed to see what was in there that we could gift to him that might make him feel a little better.

After digging for an hour or so and rediscovering many good memories between the two of us, Tim stumbled upon our old answering machine. Not thinking it through, I asked for it and popped it open. What do ya know, the tapes were still in it and they were cassettes. I pulled them out and walked towards my truck.

I shouldn't have.

After turning the key to get the radio going, I first popped in the message tape and found a whole lot of nothing. Tim had caught up at this point and was standing mute beside me. I put the welcome message tape in.

Mom's voice came out of the speakers and stunned us both into immobility for several minutes. Driven by some reason I still can't explain, I hit rewind and we both listened again.

Seven years since the last time I heard that voice, and afterwards we both wound up blubbering like idiots. Harriet came out to see why we had been outside for so long and found us like that. I've never loved her more than in this moment, she pulled us both in for a hug and the three of us stayed there for at least twenty minutes.

The reason why I was such a mess is regret. We did not end on good terms. I moved back to Jersey when my sister called and told me that Mom was dying, but for some reason I choked every time I tried to apologize for the things that I said and did. In the end, she didn't know what was going on anymore, but I don't really know if she wanted me around.

Whoever is actually reading this, take a lesson away from it. DO NOT let someone go without making peace with them. If you do, it'll come back to bite you.

I wish I could post something uplifting for a change. . .

Anyone who acts like an idiot on this board gets treated like one. If you want to act the hormone-driven drool-monkey, you'll get mocked for it.
#002 | undertaker shy guy |
Not entirely sure what to say...I'm not sure what I can say that wouldn't seem sort of hollow in this topic.

I'm not very good with serious things...
"I am a leaf on the wind; watch how I soar." - Wash, Serenity
#003 | Mith |
You don't have to say anything, Jake. I wrote this to get it off of my chest, not to get a reaction out of anyone.

Just learn from it.

Anyone who acts like an idiot on this board gets treated like one. If you want to act the hormone-driven drool-monkey, you'll get mocked for it.
#004 | BUM |
I'm sorry... that's so sad...
I'm glad your wife was there for you. That's really nice.. you should tell her you never loved her more than right there.